https://blue.feedland.org/?river=http://data.feedland.org/blue/feeds/Hole.xml It's just a feed for now Wed, 16 Aug 2023 20:30:46 GMT feedland v0.5.59 https://cyber.harvard.edu/rss/rss.html Wed, 16 Aug 2023 20:30:46 GMT Hole Wed, August 16, 2023 4:30 PM EDT Is there anyone else out there who gets trapped in that classic loop of "I wish I came out when I was [x]" where x is the last major state of change in your life (IE if you came out in high school it's "i wish i came out in middle school", if you came out in your first job it's "i wish i came out during college", that kinda thing) but then you realize everyone else does that exact same thing including the people who came out during the time that was your last major state of change in life and you realize they're just as sad as you are and that the people who came out during those people's last major state of change in life are *also* sad and now you're just like "I wish I was born queer even though that's not physically possible since queerness is a socially constructed external class that necessitates an internal, normal class to be external to and that I could've gone to a queers only school growing up and had my first queer crush in 4th grade and had a queer friend who I flirted with in middle school that blossomed into a queer relationship in high school and maybe it doesn't work out but like jesus fucking christ I just wish I could've enjoyed all the normal fucking things my classmates did and my friends do now, just from a queer perspective. Why didn't I get a childhood. Why didn't I get friends. Why didn't I get social spaces that didn't want me dead. Why the fuck didn't I get a consensual first kiss." and then you're like "maybe the issue isn't that my arbitrary, increasingly surreal yet specific dreams aren't coming true but just that I was never given the opportunity to live and incorporate because my existence is viewed as fundamentally external to the norm and i'm lashing out at that fact" or is this just me Wed, 16 Aug 2023 20:30:46 GMT https://blue.feedland.org/?item=91081 https://blue.feedland.org/?item=91081 Is there anyone else out there who gets trapped in that classic loop of "I wish I came out when I was \[x\]" where x is the last major state of change in your life (IE if you came out in high school it's "i wish i came out in middle school", if you came out in your first job it's "i wish i came out during college", that kinda thing) but then you realize everyone else does that exact same thing including the people who came out during the time that was your last major state of change in life and you realize they're just as sad as you are and that the people who came out during those people's last major state of change in life are \*also\* sad and now you're just like "I wish I was born queer even though that's not physically possible since queerness is a socially constructed external class that necessitates an internal, normal class to be external to and that I could've gone to a queers only school growing up and had my first queer crush in 4th grade and had a queer friend who I flirted with in middle school that blossomed into a queer relationship in high school and maybe it doesn't work out but like jesus fucking christ I just wish I could've enjoyed all the normal fucking things my classmates did and my friends do now, just from a queer perspective. Why didn't I get a childhood. Why didn't I get friends. Why didn't I get social spaces that didn't want me dead. Why the fuck didn't I get a consensual first kiss." and then you're like "maybe the issue isn't that my arbitrary, increasingly surreal yet specific dreams aren't coming true but just that I was never given the opportunity to live and incorporate because my existence is viewed as fundamentally external to the norm and i'm lashing out at that fact" or is this just me